Well with them still in the NICU right now I've only gotten a taste of it. I can tell it's going to be alot of work and my patience is going to be tested, but it'll be worth it. Twins just multiplies how busy you are so it's a little crazy when both crap themselves then you go to change one, he keeps crapping, then decides to pee all over me, the bed, himself, etc. So I have to change all that, then the other one does the same thing! It's going to take all of our energy and time, but when I'm holding them I can't help, but to just stare at them and I'm amazed that we made a human life. That's the moment that gets me and I can feel the tears come on some.
When Zach still had all the tubes on him, down his throat, and he had pneumonia and jaundice I had a rough time with that. I remember I had only seen him open his eyes once before they whisked him away and put him under the jaundice lights so he had to have visors on so I couldn't see his eyes or his face. The first time they took that visor off and he opened his eyes..................I felt horrible and helpless because you could tell he was having a hard time with all of it. It made me cry because there wasn't a damn thing I could do for the little guy. He and Cael are doing much better now and are within a couple weeks of coming home. We can't wait....................... :thumbs