Wish I had taken my high school football career a bit more seriously. Worked a little harder. But good ole Mary Jane, she had me putting things off, taking it easy, chillin' instead of liftin', eating like a damn baffoon. It wasn't all her fault though, she just contributed. I had a deep love affair with her for quite a few years in there. I also couldn't keep my nose out of trouble. Lack of direction, lack of structure, and growing up with no father in the home, a lack of a real role model...someone to point me back in the right direction when my road was winding a bit too much. I look back sometimes and think maybe I could've played a little more ball if I had given a bit more work towards it....but maybe not. Just one of those things I'll never know.
True, don't be too hard on yourself. We all have thoughts about how things could have been different in high school. You also don't want to be one of those guys who thinks that the best days in their life were as a high school football player.
Yea, I'm not that guy either. I have a few regrets, mostly just because I was a real idiot as a kid. I had fun, but I made some mistakes. I learned from it. I just missed some opportunities, academically as well,must because my lack of effort. I had what my mom called a "don't give a sh#t" attitude. It's the past. I know a lot of people probably have those what if's. I don't want to sound like I sit around and beat myself up about it too much. Just on the small list of woulda, shoulda, coulda's.
My happiest days in my life started when I met my little girl, the day she came into the world and looked right at me. Then seven years later my little boy was born. Now I get to come him to my wife and my two kids every day. My 12 year old daughter still hugs me and says "hi daddy" when I come home, I hope she always does. My son doesn't speak a lot due to his epilepsy, but boy he sure as hell waves like crazy and he does know how to say "hi". He gets all excited and runs up to me almost every single day and I pick him up. He hugs me, and gives kisses. That boy loves the heck outta me same as I love him. I'd do anything to make him better, but I've still got him here with me and to me, that means these are the best days. As long as I get to see their smiling faces, I'm grateful.
Sorry for the rant. Weird day today.
