I can't tell if ugly wins or ugly losses make me feel more disconnected from the online fanbase at large.
At the end of the game, it's kids that don't know you or me, don't care about us either, playing a game. However much you feel like you care about the program, I promise you the staff and the players care more.
We won a tough one score game against a team we have lost a lot of tough one score games against. People got so pissed about the team overlooking Minnesota and then insist on some pissy 'realist' narratives because we were in a slugfest with Northwestern, who we somehow think we have a god given right to be better than and beat just because we showed up, despite 14 years of evidence that this is never going to be easy.
The team is battling, making plays, overcoming mistakes, and finding success. Gone are the days of punts going backwards, several errant snaps and false starts every game, leading the nation in fumbles, not being able to win one-score games, and so many other problems that plagued us. New problems pop up, because it's football and players and coaches change and leave and arrive, but Rhule has clearly demonstrated an ability and willingness to adapt.
If you're a great football team, it's about not making mistakes. We're not a great football team yet, so it's not about not making mistakes, because they're inevitable, but it's about how do you respond after the mistakes. This team is responding well, in the macro and the micro. It's your right to ignore the response in favor of needing to feel like a noble brave truthteller harping on the mistakes, but you're just making yourself miserable for no reason imo.