If you are hurting, or thinking of taking your own life... Ask for help. My heart hurts for the man who was very close to my family who just ended his life. My heart hurts for him, his wife and their young daughter. Depression is a disease. Ask for help.
Sorry to hear this, and you're right. There is help out there for those dealing with depression. Don't be ashamed and don't let it fester, get help. Well said.